In Pursuit

Those Old College Days

· My time at C3 College and why I left ·

June 10, 2017 0 Comments

Go to C3 College. Make the dream happen. This could be you.

It will be the hardest, most difficult time of your life. You’ll make friends and lose friends. You’ll travel and serve, learn and change. I had made a life for myself in Sydney, made friends from around the world, travelled to new places, performed alongside talented actors, hosted conferences and I lost a lot too. But even the tears and the pain and challengers was worth it.
It was all worth it and will be worth it for you too.
It may come as a surprise to some that even after everything that has happened I can say that and mean it. But I do because I am only the person I am today because of the teaching, encouragement, challenge and opportunity that C3 College provided.

Two weeks ago my world exploded around me – in quite a messy fashion – and left me with only one option. Pack up and move out. And it was one of the hardest decisions I have ever made. I left behind everything, the life I had made for myself in Sydney, my friends, my studies and my future. But it had to happen. Your wellbeing and mental health need to be put first. Don’t make the mistakes that I have.

I have been struggling with mental health for most of my life and it is, in no way, dealt with. And I think I’ve realised that if any change is going to occur I need to stop pretending that everything is fine. I was pushing myself to the brink in denial and living on a precipice is no safe way to live. Something needed to change, something needed to be done but I didn’t feel like there was anything anyone could do to help. Then, one cloudy Sunday morning – the morning my housemate and I would finally be moving out of the mold dump that was our student housing – I found myself stuck in the shower, unable to get out of the scolding water because I still felt frozen to the bone and I realised that the straw that broke the camels back, had landed on my shoulders.

The problem is never the problem and that straw was more than one small piece. I was dealing with a lot more than just bad accommodation or just a building assessment workload. I was drowning in numbness. And I only had one option left. So I have left behind everything. I loved the two and half years of studying at C3 College and would love to move back to Sydney in the future. I will miss my college friends and the community that I had there. I will treasure the memories and will cheer ever so loudly for my class mates when they graduate. And I am not sure what my next step is going to be but for now, for right now, my wellbeing is going to come first. Because I need to remind myself of something; it’s not your excellence that makes you different but your differences that make you excellent. And if you agree with me, join me here on this newly updated version of my blog. Oh and become a Difference Maker! Ahaha xx

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